Sometimes you need to look back to see how far you’ve come. Then: drinking party animal who never exercised, a part from dancing it out in the club. Now: mainly healthy eating and training 5-7 times a week.
Sorry for not writing here earlier. To be honest I felt a bit down today, job hunting is a roller coaster and today I had a downward turn. I really try to stay positive but I miss working so much and having something to do. I feel so restless, bored and uninspired at the moment and not like myself at all. I know at the end of the day I’m going to find something but right now I just feel a bit blah.
I was back at the gym this evening. I really think I needed it just to take my mind of things and surround myself with people instead of being home alone (Jamie’s working tonight). I also have missed exercising so it felt good to be moving again.
The workout didn’t go very well, it was a fitness test to see where we were at and I felt weak. If I would’ve done this test last week I would’ve done so much better, which is frustrating. It reminded me of the fact that fitness is an ongoing journey and something that is constantly changing. You have your breakthrough moments when you feel on top of the world and other times where you feel weak and frustrated. Some session everything goes great and others nothing goes your way.
It’s so important to experience both because without the struggles you won’t progress and feel the wonderful feeling of achievement. At the end of the day, our bodies are accomplishing incredible things and because we are humans we feel differently every single day. So if you had a bad gym session don’t beat yourself up, we’ve all been there and it’s frustrating but you’ll get back on it. We can’t always be at our best but I think that’s also important that we aren’t either otherwise we wouldn’t appreciate the success as much.
It really helps to look back at photos to see how far you’ve come in these moments, it’s so easy to forget. Above you can see the change I’ve gone through. I think you see my mental change as well as my physical. I see the left photo and see someone without energy and who’s looking unhappy. To the right I see a happy and more confident woman who’s comfortable in herself.
Sorry about this rambly text but I just felt like I had to get these words out and share my thoughts xx