As I mentioned, Jamie and I went to see the highly praised La La Land yesterday. I absolutely love musicals, always have. When I was younger I was so lucky to be taken to see several musical productions in Stockholm and every time I left I wanted to become a musical performer. I love how musicals make you feel though using beautiful music and dance performances. It’s so incredibly beautiful.
The last time I saw a musical on the screen was Mamma Mia. I got absolutely hooked and watched it three or four times in the cinema. I couldn’t wait until it came out on film. I even got the soundtrack form my aunt and I was listening to it nonstop all the time. So you might now understand why I was so excited to see La La Land. Plus, who doesn’t love Ryan Gosling and Emma Stone together?
Sitting there in the dark waiting for the film to start I felt like a child on Christmas Eve. I think I sat and had tears in my eyes more or less throughout the entire film. Towards the end I couldn’t hold them in any longer and they just came flowing out. The film definitely stuck a chord with me. I’m not an actress or musician but I think we can all relate to dreaming.
Emma’s and Ryan’s characters reminded me a lot of Jamie and I, it might sound cheesy but it’s true. There was one point in the film where Ryan’s character was saying that Emma’s was good enough and she would succeed when Emma’s was doubting herself and that’s what Jamie does with me. When I’m too scared to believe in my self, he does it for me and I do the same for him. I think that’s what all couples do and it was so relatable.
This film about chasing your dreams even when you struggle to believe in yourself is so beautiful and heartbreaking. I loved how it flirted with the classic musicals we love whilst it was set in our modern age.
It made me think about my life and my dreams and how many times I’ve questioned why I would ever be the one for who their dreams come true. One of my dreams is this blog and what I do here. I want to encourage people to get healthy and exercise more. It’s something that’s so important to me. I would love to spend my life doing that. I now feel even more motivated to try and make something of this blog to help others. I don’t know how many times I’ve doubted myself and have been scared writing and sharing this blog with others. I’ve asked myself so many times why do I do this? Why would people read what I have to say? Why should this blog become successful, but then I’ve eventually thought, why couldn’t it be me? Or Jamie has reminded me. It’s a scary thought, but as the saying goes, aim for the stars and you’ll land on the moon. You have to dream big and work for it and one day hopefully you’ll realise that you’ve made it.
I’ve always struggled to believe in my abilities and to feel like I’m good enough. I’m my own harshest critic and it’s both good and bad when chasing what you want. It makes me perform better but on the other hand I’m not very good at praising myself if I’ve done a good job and I very often think I could’ve done better. This year I want to believe more in myself and that I can do things. It’s one of my goals I hope to achieve.
I hope one day I can look back on this blog and think, WOW, I did it. I made my dreams and goals with it come true.