Hi lovelies! Sorry I haven’t posted anything here today. You probably have read in the news about what happened in Stockholm yesterday afternoon and to be honest it’s been really tough to write anything. There are no words to describe the shock and fear I felt when I found out. The worry that my loved ones could’ve been there.
I found out through my dad sending me an email saying that him, Anki and sister are okay. Thank you dad for sending it before I read the news because I would’ve had a heart attack. As soon as I found out I threw myself over my phone trying to message everyone to ask them if they were okay. The wait was horrible. Luckily they were all okay. However, I’m devastated about what has happened in my beloved hometown and my heart is breaking for the ones who lost someone yesterday. These people were just walking down the street doing a bit of shopping, looking forward to their plans for the weekend and out of nowhere this happened. I can’t even imagine the fear.
I didn’t know what to do with myself yesterday but was determined not to let evil win. That’s what they want. Us to stop in our tracks and fall apart. We need to show our strength and move on. So I decided to still go to Stella’s in the evening even though my mind and heart was back home. The gym is where I heal. It’s my bubble of safety and where I go to clear my mind.
I wasn’t entirely focused on my workout so I fell on the wooden box during my box jumps, ouch. It’s so painful. Luckily no cuts but I’m bruised today! It wasn’t my best workout but being around people and getting a bit sweaty helped me a lot.
Afterwards I spoke to my family just to tell them that I love them and that I’m so happy they are safe. My sister was so close to being there yesterday, just off that street to have a haircut. Luckily Anki was too busy at work to make an appointment. I can’t even bare the thought of her maybe being there. We eventually hung up because they were packing for their holiday. I’m glad they get to go away for a bit away from all of that.
I met up of with some friends and had food as well. They always make me feel so much better and instead of going to bed feeling sad and devastated I felt love and hope. There is more love in this world than evil and love will always win. That I truly believe.
Today I’m still processing all of this and in one way I wish I was there with everyone. Showing my support and that I care but instead I’m sending as much positive vibes and love I can. This attack only brought everyone more together and together we will heal and be stronger than ever before.
Take care of yourselves and your loved ones and speak soon xxx