My Tiny One’s big day

Today is a very big day, it’s one of my closest and bestest friend’s graduation day! Kajsa (or Tiny One as I call her) is graduating from Glasgow Uni with a first class degree. I’m so incredibly proud of her. What an achievement. I never had a doubt in my mind that she wouldn’t get such a good degree, she’s amazing. We’ve known each other since school back in Sweden and now we live only a couple of minutes away from each other in Glasgow. I love having her here with me. We’ve been through so much together and I couldn’t ever imagine a life without her in it.

So sorry about the lack of blog post today but I’m just on my way out for dinner to celebrate this amazing lady with her family at the Chip and I’m running late!

I just wanted to pop in and say that the final blog post about Forth Valley Throwdown will be up tomorrow lovelies.

M xxx

Forth Valley Throwdown WOD 2

My Jamie finally arrived just after WOD 1 
Chatting with the G5 crew before the WOD started

And we were off

I put my serious game face on

Just after finishing our heat. What a feeling!

I cannot tell you how badly I was shaking taking this photo afterwards.

The amazing KJ and Julie smashing their WOD in the intermediate category.

WOD 2 was fast approaching. In between our first and second WOD I was with Jamie and the G5 crew watching some of the other heats. Just before the female RX category went on Kirsty and I headed back to get mentally prepared for WOD 2. I felt a little bit less nervous for this one as it wasn’t a fast paced one in comparison to the first and the third but then again we had to compete with our heaviest lifting and neither Kirsty or I can clean super heavy.

As I mentioned, we did some practice runs and found 50kg was about what we could manage so we thought we would warm up with some lighter weights. Then when the clock started we would straight away do 50kg clean into front squats and get that over and done with to move on to attempting to lift something heavier but we were pretty convinced we wouldn’t be able to.

We stood in the back waiting to get called out into the box. We went and chatted for a brief moment with the G5 cheer crew and then went to our bar. We had 7 minutes to warm up and then 8 minutes to get our heaviest combined weight. Before the warm up ended we had to unload the bar for it to be ready to go. The warm up was fine. We did our warm up reps and then got the bar ready for the real action.

Once the guy said go I could no longer hear or see anyone. It’s crazy how your body immediately switches on your maximum focus. I’ve never felt it to that degree in my life as I felt it on this day. I’m usually not the most comfortable person standing in front of crowds especially speaking in front of crowds but in this instance I did not notice anyone. I couldn’t tell you one song they played during our workouts for the entire day. Absolutely no idea.

We loaded the bar with 50kg but our judge miscalculated the weight that was on and said it was 55kg (which would’ve way too heavy to start with for us) so we took 5kg off and did our reps. I was pretty sure the bar was too light when I lifted it. It turned out we did have the bar 50kg before haha. Anyway, since we knew we weren’t going to go crazy heavy it didn’t really matter. We then loaded the bar with the 50kg, did our reps. After 50kg we knew we were in unknown waters. We put on 2.5kg and attempted 52.5kg. It felt fine all of a sudden! It’s crazy what adrenaline can do to you. We were so happy.

Then we came to 55kg… A weight we both had laughed at the thought of even trying. I was in the zone at this point. I was not giving up without a fight. Kirsty smashed her three reps and I was screaming in her face. I was so excited for her. I then remembered Kirsty said she doesn’t like people screaming at her and there I was in her face yelling my head off with excitement. I got slightly carried away haha.

Then it was my turn. I had no idea how this was going to go but there was no fear in me, I just felt determined. More determined than I’ve ever felt in my life. I was getting under that stupid bar. There was no option. So I took a big breath, got into the right position and pulled up the bar and there I was in the bottom of the first squat. I couldn’t believe it. Now it was only two front squats until we were at a 110kg combined. They were so tough because my legs aren’t quite as strong as Kirsty’s but I GOT THROUGH THEM!!

When I put the bar down I couldn’t believe what had just happened. Where did that strength come from? Had it been there all along without me knowing? I probably had just been too scared before to even try. This was maybe the push I needed. I felt like we couldn’t stop there. I needed to at least try 57.5kg… I knew I would regret it if I didn’t. Kirsty didn’t feel quite as convinced but joined me in the madness.

Kirsty did an incredible attempt and couldn’t quite clean it even though she would’ve absolutely smashed those front squats. Then it was my turn, again, no fear whatsoever for the heavy bar as I usually sometimes feel.  I got into position and just went for it as much as I could. I was getting under that bar no matter what…. and I did!!!! Again I was shocked at what I had just done. How did this happen? I pushed with everything I could to get from the squat and I got to one point where I just knew I could not push anymore and had to drop the bar. I was so annoyed. Kirsty then attempted again and couldn’t do it so I had another go and the same thing happened. I couldn’t push it up. So we decided to stop in the final seconds of our heat and leave it at that. We were over the moon with our accomplishment anyway!

After the time was up we went over to the G5 crew and Jamie and I was in tears, with nerves, relief and pure happiness. We had been so worried about this round and we did better than we could’ve dreamed of. Stella said someone next to her had said that I had incredible technique in my cleans and that made me so happy. I then asked her if she said she had trained me haha. Stella and I did loads of cleans during our PT sessions together and it’s incredible to hear others thought I had great technique. Couldn’t possibly ask for more. When I saw Jamie I started crying. The emotions you feel on a competition day are just overwhelming, you feel everything at once. I am a crier anyway, which doesn’t help!

When the score was up we saw we were only 2.5kg below the people above us which made us so happy. Our place on the leaderboard didn’t matter at all to us but to see our times and weights being better than our practice rounds, that’s what made our day.

We then watched Julie and KJ do their thing in the intermediate category. Absolute machines!

Today is another work day! Faye, Lauren and I did a qualifier last night for SFFC (yes I’m entering another competition haha). It was clean and jerks mainly. Some weights were way too heavy for me so Faye and Lauren did an incredible job doing the heavier lifts. Such incredibly strong ladies. I felt a bit useless standing on the side watching but I was also a bit paranoid about my back being sore again so it was probably for the best. I really don’t want to get a serious injury. Tonight we’re meeting up to do the second qualifier. Wish us luck!

Hope you’re all having an amazing day,

M xxx

Forth Valley Throwdown WOD 1

Just arrived in the athletes area at Crossfit Forth Valley

Athlete briefing

Going through the movement standards

Just after WOD 1, the look of relief. I barley remember taking this photo haha. Oh the nerves.

On Saturday morning I woke up before the alarm went. I felt wide awake and the nerves kicked in the moment I opened my eyes and realised what day it was. I had my big bowl of porridge and packed my final bits (will write a post on what I packed to bring with me for the competition, it was a bit out of hand, felt like I was moving in).

Kirsty picked me up just after seven and off to Stirling we went. We could not stop talking about the WODs. We were so nervous and the closer we got the more I was thinking, what on earth am I doing? When we parked up just by the box we looked at each other and said, right let’s just go home haha. Obviously a joke but with the slightest little bit of truth. We got our stuff together and headed in. The athlete briefing was said to start at 8am.

We went in to the Crossfit Firth Valley box, signed in and then headed in to get our competition vests. We must’ve looked like lost little lambs because eventually a guy came up to us and asked if we knew where we were going and showed us the way to the athletes area where we could leave our things and warm up in during the day between the WODs. We sat there for awhile  until the organisers came in to chat us about some general information for the day and then go through the movement standards for the competition. After that was done we went back to the athletes area to get ready for our WOD. We were in the first heat for the scaled division, so first ones out. Something we were very happy about! We just wanted to get out and have it over and done with.

Meanwhile when this was all happening Jamie was on a train up to Stirling for support. I was over the moon he was going to be there. He’s always my calm. Having him there meant the world to me. However, I got a text whilst waiting to start saying he and several others managed to get on the wrong train and ended up having to get off in the middle of nowhere to swap trains. So unfortunately he missed the first WOD, which was a bit of a shame but it was out of his hands.

Waiting to start I wasn’t sure whether I was going to burst into tears or not. The nerves were insane. We eventually were asked to go out on the floor to get ready. We were happy to see that we were sort of in a corner where not everyone could see us haha. Kirsty even managed to hide slightly behind a pillar. It was so funny. We met our judge for the day called Pauline and she was amazing. So lovely, calm and she was extremely supportive the entire day, cheering us on. We tried out the weight on the bar a couple of times before it was time to get started.

From the moment the guy said go I can pretty much not remember what happened. It’s all a blur. I completely blanked. It all went by so quickly and I panicked slightly and messed up on a couple of reps and I had to redo them. Not the end of the world but in my panic I stood and apologised loads to Pauline after I was finished and it was Kirsty’s turn. No idea why and now when I think about it, I only really let Kirsty and myself down by messing up haha. I was slightly devastated that I screwed up on squat cleans which is really something I know quite well. So annoying. Apparently Kirsty and Pauline were both screaming at me to stop and do squat cleans and not power cleans. I could not hear them what so ever even though they were right next to me. Panic mode indeed.

At the end we went up the the incredible G5 cheer crew and I told them my about my disappointment and apologised to Kirsty but they all said it was fine. It was my first competition after all. I think I was just being too hard on myself but it was frustrating because I knew I could do way better.

It was a major relief getting the first WOD out of the way. After that I felt the nerves calming down a bit and that I could relax. Whilst watching the rest of the heats Jamie arrived. I was so happy to see him. I told him about my frustration with the first WOD and he made me feel so much better. He was a star the entire day watching all the heats (it’s a long day!) and he even started learning all the terms. It seemed like he enjoyed it quite a bit. I love that we can share what we love with each other, even though we have such different interests.

Kirsty and I then had about two hours until our next WOD so we chilled about. Refuelled and hung out with everyone until it was time to go to the back to prepare for WOD 2. The round we’d been dreading the most.

Dare to say yes

Honoured to be surrounded by incredible strong ladies like these every time I set foot in G5. What an inspiration to see them compete.

Hi my dears! This time yesterday I was the most nervous I think I’ve ever been in my life. I was in Stirling at Crossfit Forth Valley doing Forth Valley Throwdown with Kirsty from my gym. I’ve been keeping quiet about it on here because to be honest, I was absolutely terrified.

I can’t believe it’s now over and I woke up today still absolutely buzzing from the nerves and excitement from yesterday. It was one of the best days of my life. I’ve never felt more sore in my life as I do today, stiff as an old lady but I don’t even care! The pain was worth it all. I feel absolutely honoured and so grateful to have been given this chance to compete and to represent team G5. I’m still getting all emotional when I think about it all, I’m so proud of myself. That I dared to take that leap, dared to say yes.

Last week I got a phone call from Kirsty asking if I wanted to fill in for her partner as she no longer was able to do it. I felt bad for them because I knew how hard they had worked together. I was in shock when she asked. Old Maddie would probably leaned more towards a no but if it’s one thing I’ve learnt this past year is you will regret more the things you say no to than the things you say yes to. So after a little bit of thought I said yes. The second I said yes I felt a lump in my stomach, oh my god! What have I just said yes to? I’ve only ever seen one Crossfit competition in my life last year working for lululemon and now I’m going to do one myself. I must be crazy. I am crazy.

Another little detail was Kirsty was just on her way to the airport to go on holiday for a week meaning we would barely have anytime to practice any of the WODs together before the actual day. Just to make things a bit more interesting. The planner that I am did not like this at all, just going with the flow and living in the unknown of what to expect but it was great for me to do it. You need to get out of your comfort zone once in a while.

Faye was nice enough to go through a WOD last Sunday with me and after that I felt a bit better but oh god the nerves I’ve had to live with the past week have been ridiculous. I’ve had trouble getting to sleep. I tried to not think about it at all, just pretending it wasn’t happening because I felt slightly panicky as soon as I did. Denial isn’t good but in this instant I think it helped haha.

Finally on Wednesday we got to meet up at the gym to run through the workouts and have a chat about tactics. That’s why I couldn’t go to lululemon’s yoga even in George Square but we just really needed to get our heads together on what we were actually doing. After running it all through, we felt a lot better about WOD 1 and WOD 3, they were more about speed than how much you can lift.

WOD 2 on the other hand was getting your 3RM front squat from the ground in 8 minutes. Kirsty is very strong on her front squats but it’s the cleaning it from the ground which was stopping her from getting those heavy squats in. I’m stronger on the clean than the squatting so if we would have combined the two of us that would’ve been great! Unfortunately this is not physically possible so instead we just had to work with what we could. In our practice runs we were struggling with 50kg so we were convinced this would be all we would be able to lift and in that case we would just have stand there for the rest of the 8 minutes and stare. We were okay with this, we both knew we would have to work a lot harder in the other two WODs.

I thought I would break up my experience into smaller posts because otherwise this would be a very long post. I can’t believe I’m sitting and writing this now having my first competition under my belt. This time yesterday we had just come out of our first WOD. I’ll tell you more about how that went in another post.

I hope through me sharing my experience it might inspire you to do something you’ve been wanting to try but might not have dared to do before. Take that leap of faith. What is the worst thing that could happen? I truly feel on top of the world right now because of it and wish more than anything for more people to feel this way. Please promise you’ll do it, that thing you’re just a bit too scared to try. Doesn’t matter if it’s signing up for that new gym, that new class or entering a race or a competition. Do it! You won’t regret it.

Now it’s time to enjoy my Sunday off before work tomorrow. My Kajsa is FINALLY back from Sweden and today it’s her birthday so we’re all going out for a birthday lunch later on today. Can’t wait to see her and give her the biggest hug ever. I’ve missed her so much. She’s only here for a week until she’s away to Argentina for the summer to be an au pair so really have to make the most of her being her before she leaves.

I’ll speak to you later my lovelies,

M xxx