It isn’t easy

Hi lovelies! It’s now been almost two weeks since I got back from France. I don’t know where those weeks have gone but it’s gone by quick! I’ve had some thoughts about getting back on track with my training since I got home that I thought I would share with you.

My first thought when I stepped into G5 and did my first class was that I was so happy that I kept up some kind of physical activity when I was away because it’s the best comeback in the gym I’ve ever had. Two weeks away from training is a very long time and you loose strength quickly if you don’t do anything. I’ve felt stronger in my legs than I thought I would. I haven’t really noticed a massive difference in them actually. I was dreading that.

Somewhere I did have a shock of how weak my upper body felt. Wow, that has been frustrating! You guys know I’ve been working so hard to build up my strength there and it’s been incredibly frustrating to accept the strength I’ve lost while I was away. I was at a point I was relatively happy with my progress before I went on holiday and it’s not been easy to accept what I have lost.

The second week back, I’m already feeling a bit better about it. Although there was one session recently where we were doing jerks and I was so frustrated with my body and how it didn’t feel as strong as I wish it was. After that class I left feeling really demotivated and frustrated. I felt weak. The funny thing is, the weight I jerked I could’ve only dreamed of doing when I started at G5. It was 45kg and when I put it into perspective that’s actually not bad at all considering I didn’t lift any weight when I was away.

If you compare yourself to others around you who have been training whilst you’ve been away and are stronger than you, of course you’re going to be disappointed. Don’t let your mind and negativity get you down. It will prevent your progress so whilst I thought I felt weak, I’ve done my best to let go of those thoughts because it’s only going to hold me back. You need confidence in order be able to lift heavier and push yourself harder. If you walk around thinking you are rubbish, you’ll be rubbish!

Another thing I noticed is my body has forgotten how to clean and snatch! Perhaps because these movements require quite a lot of technique. It has felt like my body has needed to be reminded of how to move with the bar. A very weird  feeling! So I’ve spent the training sessions between classes practising and practising with lower weights to remind my muscles of the movements. It’s better to do it properly at lower weight than injuring yourself. It’s so easy to get carried away with just trying to load the bar with heavier weights and loose your form along the way.

I’ve also been struggling with my thoughts on my diet. I’ve gone back to eating mainly plant-based since I came back. It’s been great and very tasty because I love it but with the feelings of being weak and frustrated with training I’ve doubted my diet. This has happened before, a while ago. I started thinking about maybe eating fish and eating eggs more often to help my body build and get stronger. I have this inner dilemma of what is ethically right when it comes to animal cruelty, the environment and what is best for my wellbeing because in the end, how you feel and your body’s health is extremely important. I know the main issue is I just need to build up my strength again and I know I’m eating loads so I don’t go hungry so that should clear with time but we’ll see if i end up changing it up or not. I’ll keep you posted.

Speak soon,

M xxx

 

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