Fitness is a journey, this is mine so far. I wasn’t sure whether I actually wanted to upload photos of myself like this as there is so much more going on beneath the surface but I thought it could be interesting to see that we’re always evolving and changing depending on what we do to our bodies. First pic: just before starting uni, 2012. Pic two: August 2015. Pic three: Today!
Hi lovelies! Hope you’re having a beautiful Saturday. I’ve had a great time with two Crossfit sessions. First I went down to G5 for my first ever Saturday class. We were working in teams of three and it was tough but so much fun. It ran a bit over time which mean I had to run to the underground to make sure I wasn’t late for the voomfit student session at Unit4 Crossfit. My sister was there and did her first ever Crossfit class. She struggled at first but did so well and was so proud of her. It was really fun being paired up with her. So yes, a lot of training today which has mean a lot of eating hehe. I just love training so much and how it makes me feel.
Anyway, I thought it was time to share what Crossfit has done for me. This is a post I’ve been working on for ages and now it’s time to share it with you guys. Hopefully it can help in some way. For some reason I feel a bit nervous sharing this, it is a very personal journey.
I always emphasise on the fact that fitness, health and wellbeing is an ongoing journey. There is no final destination. Throughout my over four years of training and focus on improving my health and wellbeing I’ve been going through different stages and bumps along the way. It’s never easy. This past year has changed me more than I could’ve imagined, in so many ways.
Just over a year ago I started going regularly to Gym G5. I had heard loads about this place from the girls at lululemon and that it was a pretty intense place to train, absolutely amazing but intense. I went along with Faye to my first ever class (I was so nervous!!) and I thought at the time I was relatively fit. I was slim yes but boy, I was not fit. I had trained for years but the majority of my focus was on what I looked like and the size of my body instead of my body’s performance or wellbeing. I ate nowhere near as much as I do today and it was all very restrictive. Looking back I don’t think I had an eating disorder, my relation to food was just a bit messed up. I wasn’t sure of how much food I should’ve eaten to fuel the training I was doing.
From the moment I stepped into G5 my world changed. I didn’t know then and there that it had changed but it did. Looking back I can’t believe what a journey it’s been. Just looking at the images above you can see that there’s been a physical change. I’ve gained more muscle in the past year and thereby gained weight. I’ve gained about 5kg since I started at Stella’s. I’ve got more muscular legs, muscles in my back I didn’t even know existed (very weird when my tops started feeling a bit tighter) and bigger arms. My size allows me to lift heavier than I ever thought I would be able to. I feel so strong and I really love looking strong.
My mentality has changed, I don’t even care about those extra kilos, whilst before it would’ve made me nervous. Going through workouts not knowing how you’re going to come out alive (I joke, sort of…) on the other side does test your mentality and it’s made me so strong. I’ve really thrived in that environment. Crossfit also gives you an incredible confidence boost, whenever you run a bit faster or lift heavier.
The physical stuff is well and good but the main difference I’ve noticed is the shift in my mind. I focus less on the aesthetics of my body and more on its performance. The goals I’m focusing on now are more about my performance and getting stronger and less about how I look. I want to learn how to do handstands, a pull up, double unders, lift heavier and run faster. This has nothing to do what I look. Like anyone else I still have my insecurities and days when I don’t feel that way but I feel like Crossfit has helped heal my relationship with my body. Even if I do have days where I don’t feel comfortable it doesn’t get to me the same way as before because I focus on my training and other more important things in life whilst before it was the main focus of my training, to be more “toned”. Now I love feeling strong and I’m feeling more comfortable in my own skin, it’s empowering.
Being around women in my gym who are insanely strong, who are all shaped differently and are all beautiful in their own shape and form has helped me realise that strong women are so stunning. Not only because of how they look but because how they carry themselves and the confidence they have. I was before under the impression that the goal of training was to become skinny and I was scared of heavy weights, now I love picking up a heavy barbell. I don’t know how many girls who have asked me whether I’m worried about getting too muscular or bulky looking but that’s not why I train. I train because I love it and if that means one day I get what other people call bulky, then let it be it. My body is there to perform and move. It needs to for it to feel good and if in order for it to achieve new things in the gym needs to build more muscle, then that’s what it needs to do. I will add that it takes a lot of training for a woman to start building gigantic amounts of muscle. I also think society needs to stop deciding what women should and shouldn’t look like. Having muscle doesn’t make you unfeminine in any way but for some reason people still seem to think this kind of look is less desirable.
Another way Crossfit and training at G5 has changed my life is all the incredible people I’ve met there who I otherwise wouldn’t have met. We work in such different industries that there is no way I would’ve probably met them otherwise. They have brought so much positivity and happiness into my life. They’re my family and they are always there for you. You can always find someone to talk to.
This is why it’s so important to find somewhere you love to go and train something you love to train. It will make all the difference in the world. I’m so happy I dared to try out Crossfit and I haven’t regretted it for a second. It’s been one of the best things that has ever happened to me in my life and I really think it’s something I’m going to be doing for a very long time. Unless I for some reason loose interest then I’ll just have to find something else but for now I’m absolutely loving it and can’t see it changing anytime soon.
This is the current chapter of my training journey and I can’t believe how far I’ve come this past year. I can’t wait to see what happens next. One last thing, don’t let the fear of being new to something stop you from even trying. You need to dare to go to that new class or new gym and probably not be very good at it before you can actually get good at it. Please don’t let your fear stop you from even trying. You don’t know what you’re missing out on! I’ve been to a lot of gyms and every single time I’ve been given the warmest welcome by the people there. I promise you, you can do it and the people at that gym or class will be greeting you with open arms. If not, it’s not the place for you.