Hello! God I can’t believe it’s already less than three weeks until Rainhill is happening. When Jamie and I were on our way to the restaurant on Saturday night for dinner with Anki and Ellie I turned to him and said this time in three weeks Rainhill will be over. What a strange feeling. It’s now starting to sink in that this is actually happening.
I feel like I’ve been talking about it for so long and it felt really far away and now I can almost feel the Rainhill atmosphere again. Only this time, I won’t be a spectator! How am I feeling? Nervous, incredibly nervous. I’m not thinking about it too much as when I do start to talk logistics around getting to Manchester and things I do realise this will be happening.
What I really want to focus on is enjoying myself when I’m there. I don’t want it to be something scary and something I’m fearful of. I want to look back and smile and be happy that it was such a great day. That’s the goal anyway and whatever happens when I’m actually competing, happens. I can only do my best, that’s all I can possibly do and I hope with the amount I’ve trained I’ll feel ready by the time I stand there on the competition floor waiting for the start signal. Haha gaaah just writing that made the butterflies in my stomach start fluttering again. Okay, breathe Maddie it’s fine, I keep on telling myself. It’s just a couple of workouts (with slightly more people watching!).
Considering how Stella’s been pushing us recently, I do think I’m in an okay position. I don’t really have an expectation of where I’ll end of placing. There’s no point as just taking part in my first individual competition is a big step for me. Would it be fun to go to the final? Yes it would but I’ll definitely not be disappointed if I don’t. Not at all. I’m so excited we’re a big group going down to have a good time. That’s what I want to focus on.
On Sunday Lou, Carol and I are getting our workouts for Rainhill. I’m really curious to see what we’ll be doing on the day and it’ll give some piece of mind once I’ve run through them. Then I sort of know what I have coming and can figure out how to pace myself in the best way.
Anyway, this week is going to be exciting! I’m going to Stockholm on Friday for the weekend! After a lot of thinking I think I’ve decided to share what I’m doing before I leave, just because I’d love for you to go this journey with me. Can’t wait to share it with you!