Sorry this post never went up yesterday but I wanted to write it properly. I actually can’t believe I’m writing this!
As you probably would have gathered from the title of the post, I’m doing my Crossfit Level 1 trainer course! Yup I’m taking my first step towards one day hopefully training people. It’s all very surreal and scares the life out of me but at the same time I’m really excited. I wasn’t sure I even wanted to share it now as I don’t even know if I’ll pass or not. Hopefully I will, that’s what I’m aiming for anyway!!
This entire journey has terrified me, going from first thinking about it, booking the course, flights, reading the manual and now flying over to Stockholm to do the two day course and test. It’s been tough and there’s been a couple of times when this little voice inside my head has said, what makes you think you could be a good trainer? I don’t feel ready and I’m scared of what comes next after this step. I know for sure I won’t feel ready to just throw myself in there and teach massive classes but I do know it’s a step in the right direction. The planner inside of me is having a huge meltdown, not knowing what to plan for and what’s happening next!
The reason for me wanting to do the course is because I want to help people realise how amazing and life changing exercise is. You don’t have to go everyday or want to spend your entire life dedicated to it but it does help you in life if you do it on a regular basis. So I thought, what better way to help others (other than just writing here and sharing my thoughts online) than to maybe one day be able to actually support and actually physically help in real life? My philosophy and belief has increasingly become that fitness, health and wellbeing can change the world. By taking care of yourself and being happier in yourself you can then focus on how you can make change in the world with what you’re doing. I look at all the incredible people in G5 who work as doctors, lecturers, dentists, teachers, policemen/women and so many more incredible jobs or studying, all contributing to society in their own way, all important no matter the job they’re doing. The strength they get from the gym powers them to perform at work and make their impact on the world.
I’ve had the privilege of meeting so many incredible and inspiring coaches through the jobs I’ve had and the impact they’ve had on me and my life has been massive. I can’t even explain with words how grateful I am to have met them and learn from them and even call some of them really good friends of mine. I hope to one day even have a fraction of their experience and knowledge.
It’s scary because I constantly fight with the thoughts of not being good enough to help, but as I said to my lovely Marija I was speaking to on a Facebook call on Thursday. Yes this is true, I know I might not be good enough right now but if I don’t start somewhere and give myself the chance to be good then I’ll stand no chance ever.
I need to try and see where it takes me. You need explore your passions and what you love to do in life, otherwise you’ll live with regrets for not even trying and that’s one of my biggest fears in life, not even trying because I was too scared. I can’t let fear stop me and I won’t. The same way you shouldn’t either. I don’t know where this road is going to take me by opening this door to coaching but I’m excited and I hope it’s the start of something really great. The reason for doing it now is because I am between jobs and I thought, when else will I have the time to fully commit and immerse myself in this? It was time take action and start working on all these hopes and dreams I have.
I just want to say thank you to my absolutely incredible friends (you know who you are), family and Jamie who have all been just saying hell yes since from the moment I started thinking about it. They’ve just been the most supportive people. Thank you for believing in me and always being so optimistic.
I’ll of course be sharing my experience about the course and how it goes. Fingers crossed I’ll pass the test on Sunday. In worst case I’ll just have to retake the test. It’s not the end of the world! However, I hope the preparation I’ve been doing will be enough. Wish me luck this weekend, I think this will me one of the most interesting ones yet. Hopefully you guys are excited to join me on this journey!
The reason I’m doing it in Stockholm and Glasgow or in the UK is just because there happened to be a course this weekend and I figured that it was a chance to see my family and some friends whilst I’m here. If I’ve got time! It’s two full on days and I’m flying back on Monday. Hectic to say the least!
I’ll try my best to update you during this weekend but it could get busy so I’m sorry in advance if I’m not on here as much as usual. I hope you understand.
So now my secrete’s out. Let’s get this adventure started.
Love, M xxx