Hello my dears! Two blog posts in one day? What is going on? Well it’s my lovely mum’s birthday today and as you probably know if you’ve been reading my blog for a while my mum passed away from cancer when I was just before I turned five, so over 20 years ago. It’s still something I struggle with, not every day but I don’t think it’s something you really ever get over. Especially on special occasions like this.
It’s tough and yes I had a little cry today but that’s okay and sometimes it’s just what you need. I had a cry and then went to the gym and spent two hours their with people I love. First I did the class and then I practised double unders, toes to bar, handstand push ups and handstands. All the things I need to start improving on. It made me feel so much better and being surrounded by all these happy and incredible people made me feel so much better. I know my mum wouldn’t want me to be sad but to enjoy my life so I did it for her. I did the workout for her. I did something that I love for her.
My mum’s fate has a lot to do with why I take my health and wellbeing so seriously. I know a lot of the time you can’t control if you get cancer or not but I want my body to be in it’s best shape in every single way to try and avoid getting ill. I want to live a long and healthy life and feel strong and energetic until the end. That’s my main motivation as to why I train like I do. We live in a society where everyone knows someone who’s battled cancer. It’s terrifying and I really think we need to start taking better of ourselves in order to hopefully prevent getting seriously ill. I’m not saying with training you can avoid cancer entirely but I do think if you’re body is fit and healthy you are giving yourself the best possible chance to live a longer life. You might still get cancer in the end anyway but perhaps your body could be strong enough to fight it.
This is also why I wanted to do my Crossfit Level 1 and also eventually do further courses to educate myself so I have the knowledge and tools to help others get fitter and healthier. I want to help anyone who’s looking for help to avoid disease and live a long and healthy life.
It’s not easy loosing someone you love. It never is but through all of this I’ve got a meaning in life and it’s to help and inspire others so they take the steps to be healthier. I’m realising more and more that I want to do everything in my power to help others be strong and healthy. I think it’s the base to start with fitness, then no matter what happens you are giving your body the best possible starting point. What I went through with my mum has given me a purpose and whilst it was devastating to loose her she has given me so much strength to push through in life and made me want to be the best possible version of me I could be. I’m trying to turn this as much as I can to a positive in some way and it gives me drive and motivation to do be more and be more in life.
I love you mum and I wish you were here! Miss you always but I know you’re still watching wherever you are xxx