I was a puddle of tears after Stella surprise attacked me with this post!
Hi lovelies! I can’t believe I’m writing this. So…. Here it is. The reason why I’ve been a bit all over the place recently on here. Stella has already posted it on the Gym G5 Facebook page but you guys don’t know about it yet. I’m leaving Glasgow! After over 5.5 years in this wonderful city (far longer than I ever thought I would be here) it’s time for me to go on a new adventure. Where am I going you may ask! I’m fulfilling a dream of mine of going to Australia. More specifically Melbourne and I’m so excited. It’s a place we went to quite a lot when I was little and ever since we last left I’ve had a dream of going back.
You guys know I’ve been struggling to find a job I love here in Glasgow and after loads of thinking and discussing with friends and family it became clear to me that if not now, when? I need to go and find a deeper purpose for myself. As much as I love Glasgow and all the incredible people I’ve met, friends I’ve made, I feel like it’s time. Or is there ever a perfect time to leave? I don’t think there is. You need to just make the decision and make it the time to leave. Otherwise life just carries on. I know if I don’t go, I’ll always wonder what would have happened if I did. I feel quite rooted in this city by now, it feels like home. Probably more so than Stockholm and it’s always a tough feeling leaving all the things you love behind.
I’ve never felt so happy and sad at the same time. One minute I’m super excited and the next I’m crying like mad. It’s the feeling that something is coming to an end. A beautiful period of my life. One that has meant the world to me, it’s been life changing in so many ways. Led me down paths I never even thought existed or could dream of. It’s all coming to an end. It’s always sad when things come to an end but they have to for new adventures to begin and I know that I’ll always come back to Glasgow to visit. It’ll always have a big place in my heart.
I’ll go into more depth about leaving and packing and moving in other posts but I just wanted to share that it’s happening! Even typing it now I don’t really understand that I’m going. It’s going to be incredibly difficult to leave but I know that there is so much adventure on the horizon for me right now with this move.
Jamie is for now staying in Glasgow. He’s got so much going for him at the moment that it’s just not the right time for him. We’ve been together for so long now and we’re firm believers that we need to let each other grow and wouldn’t ever want to hold the other person back. It’ll be a huge change for us to not live together (for the first time in our relationship because we met in our student halls at uni) but we both have faith that it’ll be okay. It’ll be a massive change for the both of us but we’re ready for the challenge. I really think the world is so big these days that it’s almost a miracle that at our age there would be opportunities for the both of us in the same place at the same time always (if only there were). We’re still young (Jamie 24 and me 25, 26 later this year) and if we’re going to be together for the rest of our lives we need to let us do our own thing in the relationship. I would never want Jamie to look back on his life and feel like he missed out because of our relationship and I know he feels the same.
So yeah, Australia here I come! Madeleine is actually moving hehe. My flight is on the 7th of May and on the 5th of May Stella is arranging a huge leaving WOD in G5 for anyone who wants to come and sweat with me one last time (I burst into tears when I read the post when she surprised me with it today)! I’ll give you details closer to the time but just get in touch if you want to come. I think brunch afterwards is on too (of course!). I can’t think of a better send off.
With me going away, I’m going to Sweden tomorrow for ten days to see my friends and family before leaving. Of course I couldn’t move to the other side of the world without spending some time with them. So today I need to pack everything I want to keep into two suitcases to take back to Sweden. I’ve started but am getting worried I might be missing stuff. I need to go through the entire flat and see what I’m keeping and selling. I’ve become a big eBayer as well, selling off loads of clothes (I don’t feel like I have any left almost!!).
Busy busy day ahead! M xxx