Hi lovelies! There’s something I’ve been thinking a lot about recently as I’ve been going through with my Rainhill training. Something that’s very important and we often forget about, perspective. Putting what you are doing in the gym into perspective. It’s so easy to get carried away by what other people are doing or how much you think you should be progressing and we, or at least I, forget to think about where I am in the context of my own fitness journey.
Yesterday we did a heavy WOD at G5 with lots of heavier squat cleans split up with burpee over bar. Gemma who I was paired up with and I worked up to 55kg in the WOD and I managed to do all five of them in the final round! We then attempted a 57.5kg squat clean. Gemma made it look effortless and I failed. I let the weight get to my head and I worked my self up. I haven’t actually cleaned that heavy since Forth Valley Throwdown (a competition I did earlier this year). At that time my partner Kirsty and I said if we managed to clean 55kg we would be happy. We could barely do that going into the competition. When we were there we both did 55kg, which we were over the moon about and I also managed to clean the bar at 57.5kg but couldn’t get it up. I’ve attempted it since but not managed to do anymore.
Whilst I was a little bit disappointed when I didn’t manage to get that 57kg up yesterday, I looked back at only a couple of months ago when I thought 50kg was a stretch for me. Now being able to do several 55kg squat cleans in a normal WOD and not at a competition when the adrenaline is pumping, that’s a great accomplishment when you think about it. I weigh about 60kg so that’s not far off my bodyweight which is quite crazy when you think about it. So I’m trying to stay in a positive mind frame and not beat myself up about it. It’s fine and I know strength in general is something I need to work on and I want to work on so now whilst I’m figuring out my next step I’m going to put in some extra time towards that during the day. I used to do a lot more strength than I’m currently doing, at the moment it’s more speed and high reps. Which is great but not perhaps building the strength I’d like to do. So for Rainhill I’m going to try and lift more weights and work on that aspect more.
Oh god this turned into a very long post! The night before I also did one of my seeding workouts for Rainhill with Faye. We did Viking Kelly which is three rounds of 20 cal row, 20 box jumps/step ups on a 20 inch box and 20 wall balls as fast as possible. I went in with the mindset of I’m going to try it out this week and then next week do it properly for my submission. However, I ended up surprising myself with a decent time of 9:12 so I don’t think I’ll be redoing it. I’m quite happy with that and Faye said it was better than her seeding time, considering how good she is I thought that was a great achievement. And I remember struggling so much when we did it for her seeding as well. It means I’ve had to have done some sort of progress. I was more happy about how I felt in relation to how I felt the last time than the fact I did better than Faye’s score. Being in a competition state of mind knowing that you want to do well also helps haha. You dig deep and just go for it in a different way than if you’e just training. Faye even said so herself when she did it next to me, she didn’t feel the same drive now knowing she’s already done it and doesn’t have the competition to work towards. It’s natural that you feel that way.
I just wanted to say is, I know it’s easier said than done, but think about putting things into perspective and don’t focus so much on what everyone else is doing. They are on a completely different path than you are. You’ve got your own path in front of you and you are perhaps wanting to do something entirely different from who you’re comparing yourself to. Use other people as inspiration and know that if you work hard you could accomplish it too if you really wanted to but what not to do is beat yourself down. I’m guilty of this at times and it’s very counterproductive. Why do we do this? It’s so silly as it only makes us feel worse about ourselves when we actually don’t need to. That’s why it’s great to keep track of PBs and such because you can look back at that and compare yourself to where YOU were a couple of months ago instead of this other person who really has nothing to do with you or what you’re doing.
Remember that as long as you’re doing something in regards to your fitness it’s progress even though it doesn’t feel like progress. If you’re new to the gym, going to the gym is progress, it’s a step in the right direction. If you’ve just started running, that’s progress and it’s more than you’ve ever done before. Think of every step you take as a win because it is. Even if it feels small at the time it’s the start of something big. I remember when I first started the gym I would never imagine that I would be sitting here in front of my laptop on this blog, with people reading it writing this post. But taking those first steps on my journey was the start of something big that I couldn’t even imagine at the time and it’s changed my life. When you think about it, it’s all about how you see things. I’m so bad for this at times and can end up in a really negative spiral but I really do try to see things positively as much as I can. I’m realising more and more that it’s a choice everyday how you choose to react to things. Let’s try and be better and not be so hard on ourselves and let’s be happy with our progress how little or small. It’s progress and making progress is an amazing feeling so enjoy it and keep on smashing it my lovelies!
I’d love to hear what you guys think about all of this. Let me know! I hope I’m not the only one struggling with this hehe.
By the way, if you by any chance are free today after 11am I’ll be going on the Kaye Adams Programme on BBC Radio Scotland. I was asked yesterday by a friend of mine, Frankie if I wanted to go on and talk about why women take so long to get ready in the morning and about dresscodes at work. I’ve worked in so many different industries now and struggle a lot with what to wear and with dresscodes at work so I thought, why not? I’m looking forward to it but am a bit nervous! Wish me luck!