This feeds my soul

I had to take a photo in front of this shed, painted in one of my favourite colours!

The tour guide

Talking Tastebuds by Venetia Falconer back in the UK is one of my favourite podcasts. If you haven’t had the pleasure of listening to it, you’ve been missing out all this time because it is amazing. It is about food and it’s role in our lives and influence over our wellbeing. Venetia is an incredible lady and you should really go and follow her on every single social media platform out there. She’s a strong advocate of sustainability in every single sense of the word, from promoting a vegan diet to reducing waste in our every day lives and more recently she’s been using her platforms to promote sustainable fashion. A lady using her social media influence to really do some good in the world, I love her for it. Thank goodness there are people like her on this planet who care but also have the power to influence others to care.

Wow I went off on a bit of a tangent there! Back to my point, in Venetia’s Talking Tastebuds she has set questions she asks everyone who’s a guest on her show. In the most recent series, series three, there was a new addition to these questions which was “What feeds your soul?”. I love this question and yesterday I had a moment when I felt that this right here feeds mine.

It was a pretty normal day, the class in the gym had been a killer! As usual we started off with a strength piece, which on this day was two front squats every minute for 10 minutes. EMOMs (every minute on the minute) are one of my favourite things to do in the gym and I managed to do it with 140lbs which is just over my bodyweight. The last three rep max I tested was 143lbs, so I was really happy that I could do 20 reps at 140! To finish off we had two cardio pieces, they looked pretty alright on the board, however, one thing you learn from Crossfit is that the simplest looking pieces are the ones who floor you. This is exactly what happened.

First we went on the bike for five rounds trying to hold a 72 rpm for as long as possible every two minutes. After that I felt like I was going to throw up. Then after a bit of rest we were on the rowers, 1 min on and 1 min off trying to accumulate as many metres as possible for five rounds. I rolled off the rower after we had finished. All my energy was gone. We were all lying on the ground, contemplating why we do this to ourselves! Usually we do extra work after the class but I don’t think anyone did, no one moved for a good half an hour from their spot.

As I was leaving the gym chatting to PC I thought it was too nice of an evening to just go home so I suggested we should swing by the beach for a cool down walk. He liked the idea and decided to drive us to a beach he’s been talking about for a while called Gnotuck Beach, in Aspendale, which is further down the coast.

We got there and straight away I was blown away. Shoes were taken straight off. The sand was almost snowy white and so soft as I let my feet sink into it as I stepped out onto the beach. How good is that feeling of silky smooth sand between your toes? The water was turquoise and gradually went darker the further from the beach you looked. The sun was slowly setting on the horizon with the clouds looking like beautifully fluffy cotton candy, shifting colours into soft pinks as the the sun was gradually disappearing. We could’ve done without the wind but even with it, you couldn’t complain at all. It was breathtaking and I probably took a million photos because every second the lighting and colours changed slightly and I wanted to capture it all. However, photos just never do justice to sunsets in my opinion. I tried my best.

With a little protein shake to tie me over to dinner (any form of fuel was welcomed after that workout, I felt dead) and the beautiful scenery, I felt myself slowly coming back to life. My energy came back and I just wanted to skip, jump and run out of nowhere. I dipped my legs in the ocean and skipped in the sand. PC must’ve thought I’d gone a bit crazy but I just felt this spark and love for life in that moment, being on that beach and I thought, this is what feeds my soul. Being on the beach, by the sea with a friend talking about life. It’s in those moments you feel like you don’t really have any worries and you’re there in the moment taking it all in. This was especially needed as I the evening before had been feeling a bit down about mum, for some reason I was missing her a bit extra.

As we were walking there I was saying to PC that one of my goals when I worked at lululemon, which I wrote down for our vision and goals you have to do as en employee was to live in a house like the ones facing the beach we were walking on and waking up to that view every day. What more could you need? You could roll out of bed onto the beach every morning. It may feel out of reach at the moment but so did Australia for a long time and I somehow managed to figure that one out! One can always dream.

M xxx

Australia bound

Hi lovelies! Sorry for not being on here for the last week! It’s been a whirlwind getting ready to leave. Do you ever feel ready for a chapter to close? I’ve loved my time in Glasgow but I know need to do this.

So many tears have fallen and hugging goodbye doesn’t get easier but I know I’ll be back one day and for now I need to pursue my next dream.

Saying goodbye to Jamie hurt so much I can’t even think about it but I know we’ll make it through. We are always pushing each other to chase our dreams and I know when the time is right he’ll join me.

It’s almost time to board now but I just wanted to say hi and I’m alive. This is when the adventure begins. I’m so nervous and scared but I know it’ll be so much fun.

Speak to you Australia!

Maddie xxx

I’m moving

Off on a new adventure!

I was a puddle of tears after Stella surprise attacked me with this post!

Hi lovelies! I can’t believe I’m writing this. So…. Here it is. The reason why I’ve been a bit all over the place recently on here. Stella has already posted it on the Gym G5 Facebook page but you guys don’t know about it yet. I’m leaving Glasgow! After over 5.5 years in this wonderful city (far longer than I ever thought I would be here) it’s time for me to go on a new adventure. Where am I going you may ask! I’m fulfilling a dream of mine of going to Australia. More specifically Melbourne and I’m so excited. It’s a place we went to quite a lot when I was little and ever since we last left I’ve had a dream of going back.

You guys know I’ve been struggling to find a job I love here in Glasgow and after loads of thinking and discussing with friends and family it became clear to me that if not now, when? I need to go and find a deeper purpose for myself. As much as I love Glasgow and all the incredible people I’ve met, friends I’ve made, I feel like it’s time. Or is there ever a perfect time to leave? I don’t think there is. You need to just make the decision and make it the time to leave. Otherwise life just carries on. I know if I don’t go, I’ll always wonder what would have happened if I did. I feel quite rooted in this city by now, it feels like home. Probably more so than Stockholm and it’s always a tough feeling leaving all the things you love behind.

I’ve never felt so happy and sad at the same time. One minute I’m super excited and the next I’m crying like mad. It’s the feeling that something is coming to an end. A beautiful period of my life. One that has meant the world to me, it’s been life changing in so many ways. Led me down paths I never even thought existed or could dream of. It’s all coming to an end. It’s always sad when things come to an end but they have to for new adventures to begin and I know that I’ll always come back to Glasgow to visit. It’ll always have a big place in my heart.

I’ll go into more depth about leaving and packing and moving in other posts but I just wanted to share that it’s happening! Even typing it now I don’t really understand that I’m going. It’s going to be incredibly difficult to leave but I know that there is so much adventure on the horizon for me right now with this move.

Jamie is for now staying in Glasgow. He’s got so much going for him at the moment that it’s just not the right time for him. We’ve been together for so long now and we’re firm believers that we need to let each other grow and wouldn’t ever want to hold the other person back. It’ll be a huge change for us to not live together (for the first time in our relationship because we met in our student halls at uni) but we both have faith that it’ll be okay. It’ll be a massive change for the both of us but we’re ready for the challenge. I really think the world is so big these days that it’s almost a miracle that at our age there would be opportunities for the both of us in the same place at the same time always (if only there were). We’re still young (Jamie 24 and me 25, 26 later this year) and if we’re going to be together for the rest of our lives we need to let us do our own thing in the relationship. I would never want Jamie to look back on his life and feel like he missed out because of our relationship and I know he feels the same.

So yeah, Australia here I come! Madeleine is actually moving hehe. My flight is on the 7th of May and on the 5th of May Stella is arranging a huge leaving WOD in G5 for anyone who wants to come and sweat with me one last time (I burst into tears when I read the post when she surprised me with it today)! I’ll give you details closer to the time but just get in touch if you want to come. I think brunch afterwards is on too (of course!). I can’t think of a better send off.

With me going away, I’m going to Sweden tomorrow for ten days to see my friends and family before leaving. Of course I couldn’t move to the other side of the world without spending some time with them. So today I need to pack everything I want to keep into two suitcases to take back to Sweden. I’ve started but am getting worried I might be missing stuff. I need to go through the entire flat and see what I’m keeping and selling. I’ve become a big eBayer as well, selling off loads of clothes (I don’t feel like I have any left almost!!).

Busy busy day ahead! M xxx

Crossfit Level 1 Results

A very happy Maddie at this morning’s class

Hi lovelies! Happy Friday! I was on my phone browsing in bed this morning and opened my emails and there it was, an email saying that my Crossfit Level 1 results had arrived. I immediately got extremely nervous! The test felt alright but having heard a lot of people fail the first attempt I started getting more and more nervous to see how I had done. I knew I put in a lot of work but the test was quite tricky and under time pressure you just never know! You start second guessing yourself.

I first had to sign a license agreement in the first email and once that was done it said they would send the results to me in a separate email. My heart was beating fast at this point and I was sweating. It felt like forever until the next email popped up in my inbox (after a lot of refreshing!), it did eventually and I took a big breath and opened the email. I skim read it quickly until I could see the words PASSED, CONGRATULATIONS and how I’m allowed to refer to my new gained title as a trainer. I had passed. Me! I did it. I’m now a Crossfit Level 1 Trainer. I can’t believe it.

Poor Jamie was sleeping and I just couldn’t not tell him. I wanted him to be the first to know so I woke him up and I think he had a mini heart attack thinking something was wrong because I never wake him up. I just couldn’t believe it when I said to him I had passed. Both of us were just laughing at how amazing it was. What a great way to start my Friday.

I was prepared for the results to arrive on Sunday or Monday but I’m not complaining that they arrived earlier! One less thing to be nervous about. Just Rainhill to go now.

It was interesting studying for this test and signing up for this course because everything felt natural. With the reading I really enjoyed learning more about everything. When I signed up I didn’t really have much fear that I’d fail. Not because I was feeling arrogant or overly confident about it but more because failure didn’t feel like an option. I wanted this and I wanted to prove to myself that I was ready and capable of doing it.

Usually I’d be struggling to get studying done at uni just because I didn’t really feel real passion for what I was studying. For the first time I was studying genuinely because I found it interesting and I wanted to learn more. I wanted to understand, not because I was scared of failing an exam or I wanted to pass it. Yes that was important too but I was driven by something else more than just gaining the qualification and it was so refreshing. I’d never really felt that before. I’m hoping this is a sign that I’m on the right track!

So what now? I’m officially a Crossfit Level 1 Trainer!! I’m so excited, I have no plan right now but we’ll see what’s to come. Now I just need to start getting some experience or something 😛

Thank you again to all the amazing people around me who have been so supportive along the way and believed in me that I could do it. It means the world to me.

Now time to celebrate! Jamie’s working tonight so Faye and maybe even Kate is coming over for a homemade Thai curry evening. I’m really looking forward to it. The sun is shining outside, we had a great workout this morning at G5. Today is a good day. I’m feeling so grateful.

M xxx