My focus 2018

Okay okay, yes I might be one of those who like to set some goals at the beginning of a new year. I like having something to work towards! It makes me feel like I have a purpose. Not much for resolutions but more to have points, which I’d like to keep in mind as reminders. I do have a list of fitness related ones as well, which I thought I’d do in a separate post so here are the more overall ones. If you have any yourself you’re working on in 2018 please share. Let’s inspire each other!

1. Find a job I love

After leaving my job at the end of 2017 I now need to find something I enjoy doing once again. To be honest I’m really struggling to figure out what I should do and I’m feeling anxious about it. I know I’ll find something but now it’s time to really take some time to sit down, maybe write a list and figure out what I’m meant to do and what my purpose is here on this planet. I need to do something with a deeper meaning. That’s why I started this blog, to share my journey in the hope it might help someone else. I just need to find somewhere where I can do this in other parts of my life as well.

2. Read to learn

I feel like since I left uni, learning is not as much of an obvious part of my life as it used to be. In 2018 I’d like to read more informative books to develop as a person and also to open my mind. I don’t ever want to be a person who stops learning or stops developing. I want to be a better person in every aspect I can be. I’ve already started on this point and am currently reading a book I got for Christmas, Chasing Excellence by Ben Bergeron. He’s the trainer of the Crossfit Game champions Katrin Davidsdottir and Mat Fraser so I definitely feel like there are things I can learn from him. I’ll write a little review of it here on the blog when I’m done. Maybe I should start a book review category? What do you guys think?

3. Less online time to be more present

I know this is a funny thing for me to say, considering I blog and love social media. However, I’m feeling more and more that there’s a time and place for it. I want to be more present when I’m spending time with the people I love. Therefore, I’ve started making more of a conscious effort to put my phone away when I’m with them and giving them my full attention. I love doing Instagram stories and stuff and will still continue to do so, however, I want to choose those moments and maybe not all moments need to be documented and that’s okay. Some moments are just for me to enjoy for me and my loved ones.

4. Travel more and more adventures

Whilst I did do a fair bit if travelling in 2017 I didn’t really go to many new places or countries. Something I really love to do. I love to discover, explore and go on adventures so in 2018 I want more travel and more adventures. Preferably in the heat and sun! Once I have a job this will be something I’ll be looking into. One of my amazing friends Marija has been living in Tokyo since August/September last year and I’d love to visit her. Okay I’ve been there before but I was very young and would love to experience it as an adult with my beautiful friend.

5. Try new things

This is something I always try to do, trying new things. I think it’s part of life trying new things and even things you don’t even think you’ll like. Let’s don’t ever get comfortable, let’s get out there!

6. Don’t let fear stop me

This is a very important reminder for me in 2018. I worry about not being good enough and being scared to do certain things. This year I really want to focus on not letting fear stop me and getting out of my comfort zone. It ties in a bit with trying new things. I truly believe we grow from pushing outside our boundaries and doing things that scare us. I don’t want to look back later in life regretting doing certain things because I was too scared. I started doing in more and more in 2016 and 2017 and I want to continue making a conscious effort to do so.

7. Live sustainably

Living sustainably had become increasingly important for me. Recycling has always been a part of my life and taking care of the planet is extremely important to me. We all have a role to play. Towards the end of last year I started looking into more environmentally friendly and cruelty free cleaning products and such as well as my plastic use. Plastic is something I’m getting extremely sick of and it’s literally everywhere we go. You guys might remember my blog about the ridiculous amounts of plastic in the supermarkets here in the UK (if not read it here). In our home I’ve made a conscious decision to stop using cling film (very unnecessary when you think about it) for instance. I have been thinking about adding a category about this on the blog to share how I’m getting on. Any feedback would be appreciated!

8. Make time for friends and family

Something I always try to do but is so important and I think we need to remind ourselves of. The importance of spending time with our loved ones whether it be boyfriend, girlfriend, friends or family. Sometimes we get caught up in everyday life and how busy it gets and we forget to make time for these important relationships. Even if it’s just a quick message or a quick catch up over a cup of tea for an hour. I try my best with this and want to make this a point again for 2018 to make sure I make an effort.

I’m feeling excited about these focuses and sharing them here with you guys means I have nowhere to hide and no excuses. There might be more points that I’ll add in the next coming weeks as well. It’s not set in stone.

Come on 2018, let’s make this a good year! xxx

Perspective

Hi lovelies! There’s something I’ve been thinking a lot about recently as I’ve been going through with my Rainhill training. Something that’s very important and we often forget about, perspective. Putting what you are doing in the gym into perspective. It’s so easy to get carried away by what other people are doing or how much you think you should be progressing and we, or at least I, forget to think about where I am in the context of my own fitness journey.

Yesterday we did a heavy WOD at G5 with lots of heavier squat cleans split up with burpee over bar. Gemma who I was paired up with and I worked up to 55kg in the WOD and I managed to do all five of them in the final round! We then attempted a 57.5kg squat clean. Gemma made it look effortless and I failed. I let the weight get to my head and I worked my self up. I haven’t actually cleaned that heavy since Forth Valley Throwdown (a competition I did earlier this year). At that time my partner Kirsty and I said if we managed to clean 55kg we would be happy. We could barely do that going into the competition. When we were there we both did 55kg, which we were over the moon about and I also managed to clean the bar at 57.5kg but couldn’t get it up. I’ve attempted it since but not managed to do anymore.

Whilst I was a little bit disappointed when I didn’t manage to get that 57kg up yesterday, I looked back at only a couple of months ago when I thought 50kg was a stretch for me. Now being able to do several 55kg squat cleans in a normal WOD and not at a competition when the adrenaline is pumping, that’s a great accomplishment when you think about it. I weigh about 60kg so that’s not far off my bodyweight which is quite crazy when you think about it. So I’m trying to stay in a positive mind frame and not beat myself up about it. It’s fine and I know strength in general is something I need to work on and I want to work on so now whilst I’m figuring out my next step I’m going to put in some extra time towards that during the day. I used to do a lot more strength than I’m currently doing, at the moment it’s more speed and high reps. Which is great but not perhaps building the strength I’d like to do. So for Rainhill I’m going to try and lift more weights and work on that aspect more.

Oh god this turned into a very long post! The night before I also did one of my seeding workouts for Rainhill with Faye. We did Viking Kelly which is three rounds of 20 cal row, 20 box jumps/step ups on a 20 inch box and 20 wall balls as fast as possible. I went in with the mindset of I’m going to try it out this week and then next week do it properly for my submission. However, I ended up surprising myself with a decent time of 9:12 so I don’t think I’ll be redoing it. I’m quite happy with that and Faye said it was better than her seeding time, considering how good she is I thought that was a great achievement. And I remember struggling so much when we did it for her seeding as well. It means I’ve had to have done some sort of progress. I was more happy about how I felt in relation to how I felt the last time than the fact I did better than Faye’s score. Being in a competition state of mind knowing that you want to do well also helps haha. You dig deep and just go for it in a different way than if you’e just training. Faye even said so herself when she did it next to me, she didn’t feel the same drive now knowing she’s already done it and doesn’t have the competition to work towards. It’s natural that you feel that way.

I just wanted to say is, I know it’s easier said than done, but think about putting things into perspective and don’t focus so much on what everyone else is doing. They are on a completely different path than you are. You’ve got your own path in front of you and you are perhaps wanting to do something entirely different from who you’re comparing yourself to. Use other people as inspiration and know that if you work hard you could accomplish it too if you really wanted to but what not to do is beat yourself down. I’m guilty of this at times and it’s very counterproductive. Why do we do this? It’s so silly as it only makes us feel worse about ourselves when we actually don’t need to. That’s why it’s great to keep track of PBs and such because you can look back at that and compare yourself to where YOU were a couple of months ago instead of this other person who really has nothing to do with you or what you’re doing.

Remember that as long as you’re doing something in regards to your fitness it’s progress even though it doesn’t feel like progress. If you’re new to the gym, going to the gym is progress, it’s a step in the right direction. If you’ve just started running, that’s progress and it’s more than you’ve ever done before. Think of every step you take as a win because it is. Even if it feels small at the time it’s the start of something big. I remember when I first started the gym I would never imagine that I would be sitting here in front of my laptop on this blog, with people reading it writing this post. But taking those first steps on my journey was the start of something big that I couldn’t even imagine at the time and it’s changed my life. When you think about it, it’s all about how you see things. I’m so bad for this at times and can end up in a really negative spiral but I really do try to see things positively as much as I can. I’m realising more and more that it’s a choice everyday how you choose to react to things. Let’s try and be better and not be so hard on ourselves and let’s be happy with our progress how little or small. It’s progress and making progress is an amazing feeling so enjoy it and keep on smashing it my lovelies!

I’d love to hear what you guys think about all of this. Let me know! I hope I’m not the only one struggling with this hehe.

By the way, if you by any chance are free today after 11am I’ll be going on the Kaye Adams Programme on BBC Radio Scotland. I was asked yesterday by a friend of mine, Frankie if I wanted to go on and talk about why women take so long to get ready in the morning and about dresscodes at work. I’ve worked in so many different industries now and struggle a lot with what to wear and with dresscodes at work so I thought, why not? I’m looking forward to it but am a bit nervous! Wish me luck!

M xxx

Change


Hello lovelies! I’m going through a bit of transition at the moment and whilst I know it’s because it’s necessary, it’s tough! I’m sorry if I seem a bit off on here on the blog. I’ll tell you soon what’s going on once it’s all been sorted.

Anyway, I’ve had a rest day from the gym today because I felt like I needed it and instead this evening I’m going for a massage. My poor left calf is feeling extremely stiff and tender as well as my shoulders so I can’t wait to get that sorted. Or I don’t know if “can’t wait” is the right terminology because I have a feeling it’s going to be painful! But I can’t wait for it all to feel better afterwards. Getting massages more regularly this year was in my new year’s resolutions but I can say I’ve been absolutely terrible at actually doing that. Massages have been pretty much non-existent in my life to be honest. It’s something I need to get better at in the new year, especially with my competition coming up. I need to make sure my body is fit for fight.

After my massage I’m having a little tea with Faye as she is in the area. It’ll be nice to hear what she’s been up to now when I haven’t seen her as much, even though I spoke to her on the phone yesterday… It’s going to be a nice chilled evening and I really think I’m in need of it to gather my thoughts.

It’ll all be better soon and it’s all part of the journey, the ups and downs. I just have to get through this rough patch to get to where I want to be. I’m starting to feel clearer of what that might be but am not quite ready to share it with the world right now. I’ll let you know when I am my lovelies. I feel hopeful and that’s the main part.

Thank you for being here and reading my random thoughts lovelies. I appreciate you so much.

Love, M xxx

Fearless AF

Hi lovelies! Another week! A very exciting one because it’s Faye’s Rainhill Trials week!! On Friday we’re heading down to Manchester and on Saturday she’s competing. I’m so excited for her. I know she’ll smash it. At the end of the day you enter these things to push yourself and see how well you do and no matter how she does on Saturday she’ll have proven a lot of things to herself. I’m so proud of her already. I’m also looking forward to seeing Manchester for the first time. I know we won’t have a huge amount of time to actually see the city but we’ll have some time on Sunday to see bits and go for a nice brunch before we head back up to Glasgow. It’s going to be an amazing weekend but full of nerves.

I came across this amazing video by adidas the other day in the world of the internet and thought it was pretty amazing! I love how it showcases women who are really badass and that there are some insanely awesome women who are out there doing incredible things in sport.

One thing that really struck a chord with me was when the voice says “They are expected to succeed in their sport whilst maintaining femininity”. It’s something I think a lot of girls struggle with, this expectation for them to look a certain way when they train. We need to look” feminine” and a lot of the time femininity is associated with being skinny. I think it’s great that adidas are showing women in this video in different sporty physiques with bodies that are like machines. Showing what a strong body can look like and that that’s feminine too. Being strong and looking strong is feminine as well, not only manly. You are a female (if you identify as a female) and therefore whatever body you have is feminine. It’s just a body at the end of the day. Of course you need to take care of it through movement, food and rest for it to function well but it’s not your entire being. Sometimes we forget that.

I don’t know how many times I’ve heard girls around me being scared of building muscle because they don’t want to look too bulky. I don’t worry about that anymore because first of all, lifting weights doesn’t automatically equal getting bulky but also I want my body to get stronger and feel stronger. I want it to be better and therefore my body needs to change and will change. I don’t care if I get “bulky” but it would take a lot for me to get a stage like that. I’m yet to see any woman who I know who looks too bulky from training.

What do you think of adidas video? Would love to hear!